As year two begins, I reflect on how different things are and how unprepared I was for this year. I imagine a second year with lights that would warm my face in the morning and instead I get a few dark clouds that are determined to teach me that they deserve to be part of the blue skies. As I embark on year two, I think of how I want to remember this year. How do I continue to instill pride in my community? What lessons do I want to learn this year? And how am I going to remember the lessons learned in the past year? Although, a control freak like myself should know that there is only so much I can control I dare to imagine that the answers to the questions above will be consistent and uncompromising.
This is a lie.
All I want to feel at the end of this year is change. I want to enter this year with a clear mind and understanding. I want to be able to control what I can and participate in the learning that this year will bring. I selfishly want to prove to myself that the reason why I picked this path was not deceiving. I do not want to be off shore and feel in an island. There is nothing I can do to make others understand all I can do is learn to be patient. So as year two starts I embark this and I am okay with not having a partner in crime.
