Life as I know it now has changed. He admires me and I am his favorite person. The memories of this day will stay with me forever and although he will never say he loves me and I love him. I am seeing clearly view of him. The questions or talks about him and I are useless. People do not get it and that is fine. I am at peace with that now. He gets me and I get him.
He is not the most liked person but in a time of self-doubt all he said was, "When I hold you I don't just see what you see, I see a strong beautiful woman. And I feel blessed to have you and hold you." In that exact moment, I knew he loved me. Sadly, the outside talk about the what ifs, differences between us, and his understanding of what constitutes me might be too much for us to handle.
I cannot understand how life can show you the best of someone and then show you the worst. The circular continuum of him might be more than I could handle. I do not know if we are going to make it. All that matters is that he loves me and I adore him and that is all I should remember.
This was a journal entry from 2011. I know that there is much missing to this story but all you need to know is that I loved him and he loved me. We just loved each other so much that when our flaws appeared; the love and the flaws melted together and we did not know how to separate them for us to survive.
